Am I what I want?


 

I am hungry, but not for food

I want to shout, but nothing that can be heard.

 

I am lonely, but not because I am alone

I want to run, but not away.

 

I am sad, but not because I am not happy

I want to drown, but not in water. 

 

I am on top, but not of anything

I want everything, but nothing I need.

 

I am nice, but not because I am good

I want to share, but nothing that I own.

 

I am weak, but not because I am not strong

I want to hoard, but nothing that can be bought.

 

I am alive, but not because I am not dead

I want to fly, but not to anyplace. 

 

 

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